It has been almost 5 months since I am abroad. I had work and plans in my home country, but still the routine of the day and the dullness of work made me adopt the decision and go for drastic changes in my life...Going abroad, especially at not such a young age might be challenging, and the major part of this challenge is usually found in your own head...
Have I made a correct decision? I don't know and I am not sure that I will ever know. On the one hand, I am in a country where the living standards are much higher. If I cope with the task of starting my study here, I will most certainly have good perspectives for the future, etc. On the other hand, motherland is motherland...even though it makes you nervous and depressed. I mean, there are my parents, my friends (although, there are not many of them and we have never been so close for me to consider not leaving the country just because my friends are there)...
Finally, and most importantly to me, a foreigner here starts his/her life from scratch irrespective of the educational levels, experience, and similar things that does mean a thing when you confront the harsh reality. I have a specialist diploma, working experience of about 3 years, family plans, and future projections...Here I should prove my ability to achieve all that anew.
Sometimes it comes to mind that the things I go for right now are far from being the most important ones in life. Really, if you think, money is not everything, although without it everything else becomes much difficult to achieve. In other words, family is the basis...I think I am getting mature, so unexpectedly...I am thinking about having a baby with my girlfriend, but at the same time I am not quite sure that I am ready for such a huge change in my life. Probably, you are never ready until you just have to care for another human being that simply cannot care for itself and demands your protection....So, I am really not sure that what I am doing at the present time here abroad is right. At the same time, I am fine!
Hey John, spunk up:)
ОтветитьУдалитьLife is not so complicated as in our minds... I mean, we choose what it looks like.
Pessimistic thoughts come 2 any of us. At that time I, f.E., put my sniper gun in a safe far from my pessimistic thinking head, that directs my pessimistic mooving hand, which pulls the f***ing trigger...
And next morning I wake up thankful 2 the sun and air 4 still living!
My advice is: "Care of what you already have. All the rest'll be given 2 you by the destiny";)
You ask eternal question that may have been asked million times before you already. Have I made a correct decision? You say you`ll never know... I disagree. You WILL know, believe me. And possibly very soon. Just don`t regret this your decision. You may wonder if it`s right or wrong but don`t regret it. Remember?... Everything is for the better. It`s good that you`d done this step. As they say it`s always better to regret of what you`d done than of what you had not. Really, maybe it`s your destiny... People are in habit of repeating "It`s not my destiny" if something goes wrong. It`s easier to say this than to improve situation or to change it.
ОтветитьУдалитьLook around! Everything is not so bad as it may seem! You are wonderful guy, you have lovely girlfriend, you both are thinking of having children! And now you are just searching for your own WAY in your own LIFE. It`s normal. You`re totally fine!First, you should be the first to believe it. And go ahead.Catch happiness by it`s tail. It should be with you whatever you choose: return or stay and fight. And don`t be in a hurry. Wise people say that life will show itself. Just wait a little bit. Your heart will prompt you what will be better for you. It`s sometimes difficult to be at crossroads. But it`s OK. Some day you`ll remember this with a happy smile.
Good luck!
P.S. By the way, I`m fine, too! :)
Small Radish.